I'm kind of obsessed with my site
Feb. 11th, 2021 06:23 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sadgrlI haven’t been formally “blogging” as much, since I decided to take a different approach to my website. My experience having this space has been super positive, and I really love coming up with new and different pages to add. I love how some others on Neocities refer to their page as their ‘playground’ because that’s exactly been my experience. It’s especially thrilling to break all of the UX and SEO rules that have been drilled into me. I’ve decided to think of it as a ‘living zine’ about, well, me.
The idea of a zine has always appealed to me, but it’s difficult for me to conceptualize something like that because I can’t draw. I’ve always felt that not being able to express myself in a visual way has been super stifling because I want to be creative so badly… especially visually. And yeah, I’ve tried learning to draw but it’s an especially sore spot for me. I’m fragile… I feel like it’s so much easier to make an impression on someone with something visual, rather than making them read large blocks of text (like this).
“Web design” or whatever you want to call it, is apparently a “passion” of mine. I do it at my job. It’s a source of agony for me a bit, because if anything ever happens to my current job, my skills aren’t super marketable because I don’t know Javascript. I spent 8 months trying to learn… but I have dyscalculia and HUGE issues with math-like logic, and just hearing the term “recursion” gives me heart palpitations and makes me want to cry. Basically, it’s not for me. But that’s what being a “front end” person is nowadays. Oh, if only I was 28 in 2006, I probably could have made a decent salary on HTML/CSS knowledge alone.
Creating a space on the web isn’t the only part of it though. I love browsing other people’s sites for inspiration. I’m especially a fan of the site oocities which lets you search old recovered Geocities pages. It just makes me feel warm and fuzzy, idk. I wonder where all of those people are today.
Oh, and web design isn’t my only passion. Another one is data hoarding. I hope to showcase a bunch of old stuff saved on my hard drives from “back then”. I still have so much more to say about my overall experience on the internet, and I enjoy indulging in the nostalgia of retelling it. I have lots of ideas! Even if no one ever reads this, it makes me feel better that this is out there somewhere. (I have friends, I promise...).
~ Sadness
The idea of a zine has always appealed to me, but it’s difficult for me to conceptualize something like that because I can’t draw. I’ve always felt that not being able to express myself in a visual way has been super stifling because I want to be creative so badly… especially visually. And yeah, I’ve tried learning to draw but it’s an especially sore spot for me. I’m fragile… I feel like it’s so much easier to make an impression on someone with something visual, rather than making them read large blocks of text (like this).
“Web design” or whatever you want to call it, is apparently a “passion” of mine. I do it at my job. It’s a source of agony for me a bit, because if anything ever happens to my current job, my skills aren’t super marketable because I don’t know Javascript. I spent 8 months trying to learn… but I have dyscalculia and HUGE issues with math-like logic, and just hearing the term “recursion” gives me heart palpitations and makes me want to cry. Basically, it’s not for me. But that’s what being a “front end” person is nowadays. Oh, if only I was 28 in 2006, I probably could have made a decent salary on HTML/CSS knowledge alone.
Creating a space on the web isn’t the only part of it though. I love browsing other people’s sites for inspiration. I’m especially a fan of the site oocities which lets you search old recovered Geocities pages. It just makes me feel warm and fuzzy, idk. I wonder where all of those people are today.
Oh, and web design isn’t my only passion. Another one is data hoarding. I hope to showcase a bunch of old stuff saved on my hard drives from “back then”. I still have so much more to say about my overall experience on the internet, and I enjoy indulging in the nostalgia of retelling it. I have lots of ideas! Even if no one ever reads this, it makes me feel better that this is out there somewhere. (I have friends, I promise...).
~ Sadness
